Too much has happened this past week…

I can’t even remember what I did after school on Wednesday. I know I did something. But I can’t remember what.

You know things are crazy when you start to lose hours of your memory. 🙂

But a lot happened for the good.

I am getting married a week from today!

I stayed up all last night packing boxes, and then hauling said boxes up the stairs. This morning at 9 am I rented a U-HAUL and loaded said trailer with 95% of my earthly belongings and moved it to the Yak house. Where I unloaded said U-HAUL. Let’s just say, that if it weren’t for my dad and Jared… (My dad WAS SO MUCH HELP) I might possibly be dead right now. I am pretty sore… and tired.

But my spirit is excited.

Tomorrow I unpack boxes and in the process begin to create my first “home”.

I love being in love. 🙂

Three weeks from this moment I will be preparing to walk down the aisle.

CRAZY.

The job with the Kindergarten is going SO AMAZINGLY WELL.

God knew what He was doing.

I also purchased a car last week.

2000 Subaru Outback. It’s pretty sweet.

Definitely a family car.

Doing more wedding stuff today.

Yesterday was a wonderful day!!

I got to hang out with my ex-roomie-still-fantabulous-friend Megan! We got to have a girls day (SO FUN!) shopping at the dollar store, seeing Flushed Away (a great animated film of which not many children attended on a school day at 10:55 am… a time I highly recommend for seeing any children’s movie.) Then we went to Pizza Hut (oh sweet carbs!) and then home.

During this fun time, I got a call from the Principle at the Elementary school I interviewed at on Monday.

Guess what??

I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And I was happy to be happy with another person!

After girl day, I went to Castle Rock to do Pre-marital counseling with my man. Which was another GOOD time! We talked through the ceremony and schedule…and it made me realize I am getting married in 38 days! almost one month! CRAZY!

SO… things are going well! God is good and faithful and I now have a job, my car is on the way… and I am marrying the most amazing man EVER.

I am excited for tomorrow!

An interview at 12:30. Quite possibly THE job.

Doing wedding errands with my dad (Finally checking off a few more things.)

And small group tomorrow night.

HECK YES.

Where did October go? Does anyone else feel like it moved unusually fast?

A blessing and a curse all at once.

Still no job.

Tomorrow is November 1st. Soon I will say ” We are getting married next month.” EEK! I am so ready to be married, but there is still SO MUCH that needs to be done.

Yesterday I was confronted by the same thing twice. I went to lunch with my dad and then to do some errands, and he asked me “When you are trying to follow God’s will, how do you tell the difference between Satan getting in the way, and God telling you no?” Later in the day, my friend Rebecca came and picked me up to get a cup of tea… she talked about a situation she was going through, with the same thoughts.

I have been struggling to figure out these things for myself. Of course each situation is different, but the search for God’s plan for my life and the courage to actively participate in that plan, no matter how scary or far from my comfort zone… is sometimes wearing.

I just want to be wise enough to make the right decision.

I want to be patient enough to wait for God’s timing.

And I want to be deaf enough not to hear the world telling me that I am wrong for doing so.

Ahh the first snow… (the first REAL snow)

It has been overcast all day.

And suddenly it began snowing.

It is the kind of weather that demands you slow down, read a book, wear a big sweatshirt, and drink something warm.

It’s also the kind of weather that makes me wish I were married now. To have someone to cook soup and grilled cheese for and then cuddle while watching a movie. And then I wouldn’t have to say good-bye and drive the hour and a half home.

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On a totally unrelated note, I think there is a mouse that is sharing my bedroom with me. I found some black looking pellets on my window sill (quite possibly mouse ‘number two’) and my bean plant was missing dirt… which was also scattered all over my window sill. Like a small animal had been digging… or something.

So I put some almonds out and tonight I might put some cheese… just to see if I am correct.

Oh the weirdness.

Credit Card fraud is not a cool thing.

I thought my $500 check had been deposited… meaning my Prius would be on its way soon.

Instead… somewhere in California, someone who has GOT TO BE KIDDING ME,

Bought $172.13 of game stuff from EB Games

Bought $270.65 of Groceries at Ralphs

Bought $113.02 of gas and whatnot at 7-eleven

and finally a dinner at Wienerschnizel for 16.19.

I am unemployed. All the money I have is in my account, and this geek spent half of it.

Last night I cried.

This morning I went to the bank and filed paperwork to get my money back for unauthorized use.

Somehow, in this cruel world… justice has prevailed. ( I get reimbursed in 7-10 days.)

And some idiot in Cali is eating, playing games, and driving…. for free.

I am growing weary…

It feels like I am in the dating scene again.

Compassion broke up with me this morning… via email.

Rejection is rejection, no matter who it comes from.

I got a call from Compassion International last Friday… they were calling to schedule an interview on Monday for the Sponsor Correspondence position.

The interview went well… I felt really good about it, and if it works out, I think I will be very happy there.

Today I mailed another application to another company.

The uncertainty of tomorrow makes my heart heavy.

All I want is for someone to allow me to do what I am able to do.

Phone… please ring!!

This time last year I was sitting on my bed in Japan, when the song by Green Day played on the radio. Even though my reason for wanting September to be over then was different than the song’s meaning, I still felt it worked. I can’t believe it has been a year already from that time I was so alone and ready to be back home.

Now, September has passed unnoticed. Suddenly October is next week and I don’t feel like I have accomplished near what I should have. My name is changing forever in just over 2 1/2 months, I don’t have a job, we haven’t finished the things we need to do…

Stress.

Wake me up when September ends…